Entry 26

Could someone please tell me who the h*ll I am? Anyone. Please? I guess not. I suppose that would be because I show everyone in the world a boy named Nathanial but is he me? I don't even know. Everyone puts on a mask and I sometimes wonder if I also do. I try not to, but as I think about it I also try really hard to keep it on. Some people obviously put on a mask so that the world thinks of them differently them, like Jessica. She wants everyone to think that she is an evil Slytherin and everything, but somehow I don't think that she would actually join the dark lord. Maybe...maybe she would, but that would be for personal reasons. I think she ended the FDE because she didn'twant people to join the dark lord, but I suppose most people with think that I am stupid when they read this, if they read this. Oh well...alright but about me. I just don't know who I am, I think I am having an identity crisis...do Vampires get those mid life crisis things? Oh well, whatever it is it's bothering me. I know what I act like and I also know what I aspire to act like but I don't know what I am. I know that around most people I am a goody two shoes who acts like a gentlemen and is a strong leader, I know most people think I have a lot on my plate because I can't hide it well enough, and I think I am most peoples friends. I want to be or I aspire to be a good leader, and a strong king, someone who does whats right, but I don't know what I am right now. I mean there are facts, I am the Gryffindor Seeker, I am the leader of the key club, I am a Gryffindor Prefect and the Dorgotten prince, also a half vampire. But what else am I? I don't know, define me. Define who I am. Is it what others see me as or is it more? Is it what I want to be seen as? Is it who I really am, if it is who I really am then how do I know who I really am? This is confusing, not as confusing as girls and stuff in muggle studies class but this is still really confusing, I just don't know what to do. I need to go, sorry if I confused YOU diary. But this is another one of those times where I would like to die, that or nail myself into a coffin deep under ground for a while. Speaking of which I don't think it's possible to get a descent day or night sleep around here, the last time I tryed to sleep I was woken up after Leah had thought I was dead, given me mouth to mouth, had a shouting match with Jessica, and shaken me then sobbed onto me. When I woke up she hugged me and hit my head against a tree... that was a wonderful way to wake up I have to tell you, in the last week I may have gotten 10 hours of sleep, I'm exausted, even Vampires have to sleep, and I would so much rather sleep durring the day. Oh well, to much work for that. I mean I don't really need sleep... right?
-Nathanial James Dorgotten the half vampire prince of the dorgotten kingdom.

Entry 25

Dear Diary,
So much has happened in the past few days, I don't know where I should begin. Pat came back to our side, and re-joined the key club. Just in time too because Jessica betrayed the FDE. I don't know what happening with her, but something is definatly up. Could it be she is trying to get into my good graces so that I wont see she is the traitor to the protectors? Or is she even the traitor? Right now I could still be, or James, Darren, or Rebecca. Anyway, enough about the protectors and the stupid professy. To much is happening here for me to worry about it, we were assigned teachers to help as prefects, and I got Froyodor, I'm rather pleased...umm...well maybe not at all pleased but I'm sure it will be fine. Other things have been happening, I held another meeting for the key club and our list of members is ever growing. And Grettle the head girl came to me telling me that she was going to put mw through h*ll this year. I dunno if I deserve it or not, I did break up with her...but I thought I did it in a nice way, or as nice as possible. But I don't understand why we can't still be friends...alright moving on. Purity and I broke up, this time we both decided that we wanted to keep our friendship. Purity is wonderful. Anyway...I have to say I am once more really confused about females. Kiyo kissed me...and I don't know how to feel. I think I have a problem. First I think I like someone, then I don't like them like I thought I did, and then we break up. And then I like someone again. I hate it. Why can't I just pick one girl and always like her? Why? Why? Alright...I need to go, there is so much more I could say, but I don't have the time. Bye.
-Nathanial James Dorgotten the half vampire prince of the dorgotten kingdom.

Entry 24

Dear Diary,
I am now entering my fifth year at Hogwarts. It's truely amazing to see everything that has happened and everything that has changed. I am constantly alert and constantly fearful for my friends. But a lot is comming into the big picture and it could mean the world or the life of myself or one of my best friends. But I shall have to tell you about that later. First off I am elegable to become a prefect for Gryffindor, I would love to have the posistion. That would set me up for a posistion for prefect in 6th year and then maybe even head boy. If I could do that I could try for a teaching posistion, and that would be wonderful. I feel as though I am simply putting off the inevitable. Now that I am going into 5th year I only have three years left to fullfill the professy about the protectors or watch one of my friends fullfill it. One of us five will betray the others, and though the thought saddens me there is much more I need to think about. Who of Darren, James, Rebecca, Jessica, and myself will turn traitor must be placed on the back burner. It has become clear that changes are occuring, James is going to challenge Hanzo for his place as the second in comand of the assassin academy, and Rebecca left school to go back with her father Drake to take over when he is done. Jessica and I are the only protectors here now, although I have recieved word from Darren that he is comming to visit, and pick up news. He has become the leader of the Li Clan, and is eager to see Angel and the others. There is much more I should speak of, the Stalwarts are posing less of a threat every day, I believe Bryon threw them off my trail. I will be able to end the war in a few years time. Other then that our teachers O'Brennan and Valwood have gotten married and had kids and my father Corvis and Juliana are still engaged. I fear Grettle is angry with me, and with good reason, but Jessica is trying to turn her against me, and possibly to Voldemort. This year is going to be a big year for the Key club, and for Jessica and her death eaters dreams. I don't know what is going to happen. I can't say more now, there is far to much to name, good bye.
Nathanial James Dorgotten, the half vampire prince of the Dorgotten kingdom, Key club leader, Protector, and Christian.