Entry 9

Dear Diary,

So much has happened I havn't had a chance to write. I will miss faith now that our class is over, but aside from that I have had some problems. Kina is trying to make us hate her, and I still can't tell why. I think it's because she is afraid she will have to leave... I still havn't told her that their is no way I'm letting them take her while in here. If I have to I'll take her into the shadow world until after they have come to get her... or turn her into a vampire.

The other day I had a chance to talk to Angel, and I almost let something important slip. That wouldn't have been good, like everyone else she tells me not to turn myself over to the stalwarts... but I think I may have to. Or at least marry a Stalwart, thats not a very happy idea. I would gladdly, if I wasn't maddly in love with someone else. Dane, these girls are so confusing... I love them anyway. :)

Alright, so anyway... something happened and ruby was suddenly up in the air being held by vines by a judge. I cut her down and sent a spell back at it, after a while it left... but it came back, and ruby beat it. She's amazing.

I talked to Isabelle, it's her birthday today. I hope she has a good birthday, I don't think the others like her very mcuh, Agel has been nice but ruby and kina don't even try to fake niceness sometimes... I guess I can't make them be friends. Although when Angel and Isabelle hugged it was the most touching thing I have seen in a good 40 years.

I wrote afew poems today, one about a load of stuff.... basically to get rid of all this extra emotion, and the other for each of my friends, excluding rachel, finn and the people I havnt gotten to know well enough to write about.





Hidden
I can’t tell them
But that’s all I want
I can’t show them
But it’s all I have to show
I can’t let them see
Because it’s all I know
Something’s should be broken
And others should never die
Something’s last a life time
Other things never leave the sky
Angels sing up high
Glistening in an ever growing light
Ruby’s shine forever
And are as precious as first sight
Those who know the arts
Bring the world a gift
And friends who are lost
End up showing you the way
People pass through your life
And you grow to love them
Just in time to lose them
Like you had lost before…
I can’t tell them
They can never know
Some things are a mystery
Like when a child first sees snow
Others should be shown
And revealed over time
I just wish I knew how to tell them
I just wish I didn’t have to lose them…
So many lies among us friends
People dieing unfair ends
Hearts are broken
Lessons learned
And then it starts again
The world may never stop spinning
But my world is upside-down
And it just keeps on turning
No matter what goes round
Lies and deceit are what I see
And sometimes I just want to die
But somehow I know
That can never be the way
People will always leave me
Despite what they say
And although I ask for trust
I can not give it away…
Loves another matter
And as each day becomes a night
Life gets even harder
Like a candle burnt of light
Why is everything so hard
Why must my friendships leave
Why can’t I tell the world
Why can’t I succeed
Why can’t life be easy
Or at least a bit normal
Why can’t I go crazy…
Deprived of all I love
All I want is to be alone
All I want is to wait
All I want is to lie
In the dark pit I made
Cold alone and sobbing
Feeling icy night
Watching as the blade
Swings down in the night
Sitting hiding in the dark
Pretending it was bliss
But really pain was a substitution
For everything I miss…
And as I take a knive
And run it across my bear flesh
I think about the world
And what I have done wrong
I have lead people into danger
And trapped the souls of man
And I know if I had the chance
I would do it over again
Maybe this is what it means
To be human and to live
Or maybe im just different
Maybe I have to give…
Everything I ever wanted
Everything I ever loved
Maybe being prince
Is a sarcrificial dove
Maybe no one cares
And the lies are all real
Maybe im depressed
Maybe I should steal…
I know I’ve done it before
Ive taken a mans life
And no matter what I hear
Nothing can make that right
So as I sit in the dark
And run knives across my skin
Reflecting on my loved ones
Reflecting on the kin
Thinking or death
Depression and darkness
Thinking of my life
That isn’t there…



Angels are meant to fly
They shouldn’t be bound
By earthly ties
It’s cruel to hurt an angel
Have you ever tried?
Seen the beautiful wings bound
Tightly by her sides…
Her long and flowing features
Seem to glow with light
She truly came from heaven
A wondrous beautiful sight
Amazing beyond measure
To perfect to be human…
You should never hurt an angel
They are amazing and light
And covered up with beauty
Is a strong fight
Angels don’t deserve
To be forced onto this earth
And like all humans
They don’t deserve to be hurt…
Have you ever seen an angel?
One that’s beautiful and true?
One that’s crying out for others?
All because of you?
I have…
I have hurt an angel…
I have made her cry…
And all because of this…
I simply want to die.



Ruby
In my hand is a ruby,
And it sparkles all night long,
Shining light on new idea’s,
Showing me its peaceful song,
Glistening in still water,
Yet as sharp as a knife,
Beautiful yet dangerous,
A truly remarkable sight.
And a girl I know,
Fits that description.
As I hold her in my arms,
Quietly she’s singing,
Of unknown harms.
Her eyes they sparkle,
Like a gleaming gem,
And her face is always set,
As smooth as the waters end.
She’s a light to me,
And helps me through,
Times of trouble.
She deserves to polished,
But I have forgotten how,
There is so much,
She deserves that
I Can’t give her.
Contentedly she lay
In my arms a still night,
Glistening like a gem,
A ruby in the light.



Kina
An artist is someone who shows the worlds truth
A brave soul who can tell it like it is.
Someone who looks deeper then the faces she meets,
Someone who can tell what’s hidden beneath.
An artist is someone who is true to herself,
Someone who’s kind and always willing to help.
Someone who’s smart and brave and true,
Someone who loves to change the worlds blue.
A beckon of hope in a cold darkening night,
A friend to the lonely a graceful sweet sight.
A caring compassionate hand on your shoulder,
A warm glowing light as the night grows colder.
A gentle breeze that tickles your nose,
That warm fuzzy feeling you get in your toes.
An artist shows you everything real,
And helps you to think of the good things, surreal.
An artist can show the world whatever she wishes,
But it takes something more to care.



Jenna
My first friend
That says it all
Someone who cared
Above all.
Someone who knew
Me before I knew myself.
Someone who was
---Always there.
My first friend
That says it all
The first person to care
The first person to share
Everything with.
A beauty beyond imagine.
A heart that was open,
A sweet soul,
Harsh words unspoken.
Lovely and kind
A friend to all
Thanks be to her
The first thing I saw.
Had I never known her
I would never know sight
I would never know friendship
I and then I might…
Have gone back.



Isabelle---
More then meets the eye,
This beautiful princess that hides.
She wants to be what I know she isn’t.
And now that she is learning,
And now that she is seeing,
She is starting to find out,
That there is more then one path to take.
Isabelle---
A girl who is more complicated,
Then she wants people to know.
Hiding behind a mask of lies,
A beautiful sweet girl,
When you open your eyes.
Isabelle---
More then model material,
A girl with wishes and dreams,
An unfair prejudice,
That always seems…
To get in the way.
Isabelle---
A heart never lost,
But put in a closet,
And became covered in frost,
An icy cold breeze,
That makes you chilled to the bone,
But within herself,
She is really alone.
Isabelle---
A closed book that won’t seem to open,
A danger that seems almost unspoken,
A cold winters breeze blowing through a warm room,
An engravement already set on a tomb.
Isabelle---
Here is my wish to you,
Grow up how you want,
Don’t let anyone hold you,
Go after your dreams,
And let yourself free,
The choice is yours,
Trust your destiny.


I will tell you about the forest later.
Good bye.

Nathanial James Dorgotten Half Vampire Prince of the Dorgotten Kingdom

Entry 8

Dear Diary,

Today I had to take care of my bird, who I named Faith. She shows more faith in me then most of the people I know, and she trusts me. I know that sounds stupid, but I love the little bird. We were all having fun, they turned me into a cat for as while... I got petted... Anyway, I went down to the Garden and ended up talking with all my friends... something went wrong... their is rteallyt to much to explain here... I was feeling weakened by the loss of so much blood and not having any human blood.

While toying with the amulet something happened and Ruby was pulled down into the relm of the dead... I went after her... but I couldn't get her back.. I tossed her back up and then went unconcious.. when I woke up she was pulling me with her card rope... and two members of stalwarts dead army. I only know this because when I came back to myslef one was falling.. stlawart.. and the other... the one ruby kiled was holding onto me... ruby puled us up.. and I remember hitting the ground before everything went black.

When I woke up everyone was worried... they were trying to get me to drink blood. finally I drank some substitution that seemed to work... we went flying and met up with Isabelle and finn. Isabelle saw my bloody arm and got me to take my shirt off.... I was going to change the bandage when Ruby came down... she didn't believe me at all... right now I'm watching the blood drip down my arm thinking about death... oh wait.... here she comes.... I have to put you away.

Nathanial James Dorgotten Half Vamprie Prince of the Dorgotten Kingdom.

Entry 7

Dear Diary,

Today was another long day. Even after everything I told you about. I decided to go down to the lawn with my friends so we could all have a good time. We were all chatting, and they were worried... I wish I hadn't told them that I am going into the forest. They each gave me something special, Kina gave me an explosive, Ruby a card for protection, and Angel gave me her hair ribbon.

Anyway, as Kina was about to go up to get something to eat another girl walked down. Her name was Isabelle, and I could tell right away that my friends aura's had turned more tense. I of course had heard the bad reputations slytherins had around teh castle, but that didn't stop me from being polite. When it became apparent that she was not being sincear and did not find my friends very interesting but wanted to speak with me was when it became hard to keep my friendly face going. Having trained in this for so long I must say that I was good at it, and I would see Isabelle later...

After she left my friends looked at me like I was the biggest sucker in the world. Only Angel seemed to know that I could see through Isabelles false appearance. Angel is a smart girl, and I don't think Ruby has a high enough estimation of her... aside from that I had an emotional break down... bad things started happening.. and each felt more real then the last.. tourcher... blood... and death... to all my friends.

Kina nad Ruby could feel it... they both were picking up on my emotions... eventually I passed out... I don't know what happened... but I remember a dream... a whit room and the girls pulling me in different ways... when I woke up Kina was on the ground... and afew moments later Ruby had passed out. Angel took Kina nad carried her up, I took Ruby in my amrs and carried her up.

We walked into the hospital wing... and after what seemed like forever of me holding my friends wrists making sure they were breathing... and Angel praying the nurse came... If they had lost their pulse I am fearful I would have done the unthinkable to save them... I would have changed them into vampries.. just to keep them alive. I am glad I didn't have to resort to that... I would have almost definatly taken my own life if I had, I couldnt bear the curse I would have set upon them...

Anyway, after a while the nurse came and she helped them.. Kina got really mad with me and chucked her pillow across the room... Ruby was very serious, and saved me completly. If she hadn't have destracted the nurse I would have been shamed... Father always told me not to be healed... and the nurse saw the deep gash on my arm... or atleast my bandage.

We had to leave then, I changed my bandage but from blood loss my fangs and my skin were changing... we headed to the librery, then the great hall... we talked and some information got spilled... nothing I can say here. Anyway, eventually ruby and angel left... so me and kina were talking... she wanted to become a half vampire... just then a boy.. Finn from ravenclaw dragged me out of the hall and down to the grounds.

At the lake he left me and said, "Your welcome." he said and I was taken aback. I smiled anyway, maybe we will get a chance to talk tomorrow. Anyway, while at the lake Kina came down and we had a long discussion about becoming a vampire, I told her to sleep on it... I don't think she understands what its like... and I know she wil regret it later. Anyway, I heard something, and saw the grass move... I could smell perfume. It was Isabelle.

Kina left and I told her to come out. What she was doing I had no idea, until she told me to sit down then everything became apparent. I don't know how to explain, but she and I got to talking. And amazingly enough... she seemed to really take what I said to heart, as aposed to everything she had said earlyer. She seemed at first to be interested in me, but as we spoke I could tell she was really thinking about what I said. Maybe if I spend some more time around her I can get her to understand that pure bloods are not supirior, I will not tell this to anyone, becuase I know that if I jsut show kindness everything will work out.

I don't need to change isabelle, it is not my place. But maybe by becoming her friend, and having her learn to except the hufflepuff girls she will change. My hopes are high as always, but I will still keep my guard up. It would be a sad say for Dorgotten if I was taken for granted by a girl, as the hufflepuffs think that I have been... Angel was the only one who trusted me.

Anway, I went back to my dorm, and thats where I am now. Getting ready to go into the dark forest and help professor O' Brennan.

Nathanial James Dorgotten Half Vampire Prince of the Dorgotten Kingdom

Entry 6

Dear Diary,

Their is so much to say about confusing females who I wont be naming. Kissing, compassion, and confusion, but I have something more important then my social life to show you.

Cold- Not a good omen. Being cold your self means that someone is being disloyal to you. Trying to keep out of the cold is a sign things aren’t going your way.

Confusion- If the main theme in your dream is confusion that means to stick to your guns. Changes would not be good right now.

Corpse- If you see someone you knows corpse then it is a sign that your relationship with a lover is about to break up. The corpse of a woman indicates a friend letting you down badly.

Darkness- Suggests a major emotional upset.

Dust- Dream of dust means you’re in time for petty quarrels and minor embarrassments

Castles- That temper of yours is going to cause some major arguments. An ancient castle is a sign to check your investments.

Pain- you are suffering small, short lived problems and irritations.

Shadow- A warning not to travel for a few weeks.

Shame- Suffering from a guilty conscience.


Yes, I know it's alot. But so far much of it has come true, and the others don't look good. I'm not supersticious normally, but what if their really is someone acting as a traitor?

Nathanial James Dorgotten Half Vampire Prince of the Dorgotten Kingdom

Entry 5

Dear Diary,

I told them.

After we left the librery something terrible happened, and I knew what was going to happen. We lleft out onto the lawn at around 9 and didn't come back till after 2 Am. Here's why... Kina, Angel, and I walked out onto the lawn, and it was very dark. We sat down, they were fussing over my arm... and I started. I told them that I was the Dorgotten prince and a half vampire, and that the stalwarts might be after them... everything went smoothly, concidering what was going on.. until we had a spy.

No, it wasn't a Stalwart, although I really don't know which is wors,e it was Ruby. A very nice girl, thast was Angel's sister. I bet she doesn't trust me, after leading her sister and some other girls into harms way. (Somewhat odd that aside from the girls in my own house, the hufflepuff girls are the only people who seem to care I exist.) Well, Ruby arived and with her came a stalwart, I know him... his names is Stanton.

He tryed to hurt ruby, but something happened and she had a odd transformation, their is more to that girl then meets the eye... I pulled out my sword and we started to fight... ruby had thankfully moved out of the way, the other girls wanted to help me... they used lumos spells to stop the shadow, that was horrible.. i think the enimy was laughing at me. In human form, neither of us were effected very much, but still... it zapped some of my strength, those girls spells were very powerful, actually if i wasnt in pain i would have been impressed. Kina was incredable, but i couldn't take it anymore... and I yelled for them to stop, almost instantly, like on orders they did... that was even scaryer hen a stalwart attack. I hate giving orders, and thats all im expected to do at home, i felt bad ofr yelling... but at the time i had little energy left tospare for feelings.

Three more shadows appeared, and because of magical bearyers that my friends were so smart to put up, they were forced to change into their human forms and they couldn't enter the minds to possess my friends... I am so amazed, even afterr all this danger, they still wish to be my friends... Idont know how i survived so long without them. Rudy, Kina, Angel, Jenna, and even Rachel... I still have to talk to Jenna and Rachel... But as of now Kina, Angel, and Ruby are in it with me.

The men tryed to grab my friends and they all attacked seperatly... I was out of it. I was yelling, I was fighting, I was losing my self... I couldn't contain the raw anger that had flared up inside me, and before I knew it... I had looked back to see my firends... and for a moment that calmed me... in that moment the stalwart hit me in the leg with his blade, if it had been a more true aim, then stanton would have killed me... but he didnt... and my eyes flared red, i became one with the night as my skin became pale, like my mothers... and then I stabbed him... right through the heart... blood dripping everywhere, my blood and his blood dripping... onto the cold hard ground... i pulled my sword away and in that moment it felt like an eternity... i had killed him... i had killed before... but everytime it brough a cold wave over me, and i felt as though i wanted to die.

In those moments the only thing that kept me from suicide, from taking the blade fresh with blood and stabbing mysdelf was my friends... not my kingdom, but these people... these people who cared enough to risk their own lives... and for me... I didn't deserve it... and I still dont... I looked back, standing, imobile, as stantons body felll to the ground, I stumbbled forwards, and tripped, blood pooring from my vains... I had to help... but my friends were amazing... they could handle it.... Angel did some of the fastest spell work i had ever seen, and kina was great... ruby did some magic and pulled out a card, i dont know what i would have done without them all...

After some more time had passed, the stalwarts were forced to retreat, they left... i think two of them got away, and the others were left either bleeding on the ground... or else dead... stanton was dead... i waved my wand getting rid of everything, including the still partially living bodies... if there was a time when i felt remorse, and regret that was it... death... those girls may have been able to fight, and to do so well... but if they had killed... to me ti would have been just as bad as to lose one of them... because thats what would happen... I would lose one of them... and they would be gone... forever... their innocence, or what was left of it... and their happy facxes, that I have now come to love...

I cant stand the thought of what we could have lost, much mroe then house points, or even our own lives... I could have lost thousands of lives, I could have lost my friends.... i could have lost everything... and really... they are everything to me... I didn't realise this until my dreams... when I was forced to chose between my kingdom and the lives of those i truly cared for, I didnt understand what it was at that moment, but now i do... I was willing to put them before me, before my father, before my mother, before the kingdom... was this friendship? they felt like family.. adn i had only known them for afew short hours... that had felt like an eternity... and I would know.

After the battle, it was late, almost 3 am... and we were all outside, out of bounds, after hours, covered from head to toe in blood... i was tired... but i decided to use theremains of my energy to get them up to their dorms safly... i took angels hand who took rubies and then kinas hand... and we shifted into the shadows, they probubly felt a cold... something they would never be able to explain... but i felt the thoughts... the hate... the love... everything from many years of mental naviagtion... and then i had to leave them... i let my mind linger going around them in what may have been a gentle breeze, i wouldnt know...

When I reached my dorm I nearly collapsed, dripping blood I made it disapear so no one would know... i collapsed onto my bed... and changed into a clean outfit... dreams came to me... i was in acorridor, running and teh stalwarts were there... then i was in king stalwarts castle, chained and trapped... and then he had captured my friends... he wanted to keep them... or kill them.. and i couldnt do anything... he had the book.... he had me... he had dorgotten... he had everything i loved... my friends... finially i was alone, with one of my friends... we were walking... and a shadow grabbed her... he hed a sword to her neck and told me to give him the book... i did... and he killed her... i dropped to my knees... i loved her... and then... all went black... and i awoke in my bedroom..This is where I am now, I am about to go to the great hall and see them for breakfast... i hope they are ok.

Nathanial James Dorgotten Half Vampire Prince of the Dorgotten Kingdom

Entry 4

Dear Diary,

If I thought today was great tongith couldn't have gone worse. On the plus side I made a new friend, so now I have three. Jenna, Angel, and Kina. They are all very nice, on a more negative note the stalwarts were here. I met Kina out by the lake when I was practicing and then we came in to eat, and I mt Angel. Saddly, at dinner I saw the shadows moving... its them. King Stalwart must have sent some guards as look outs, and they found me.

Angel saved my life, and the lives of about 5000 people today, I wish I could thank her. If she hadn't said my diary was left opened the stalwart shadow army would have taken it and after afew hundered years of notes and plans that could have ruin our countries chance at winning the war. Anyway, I followed the girls down to the librery, I wanted to be near them because I believe the Stalwarts are using my friends against me, so it's eather lose my friends, or maybe have them lose their lives... I guess I have to tell them. Having a friendship with me could be dangerous, and I do not want to lose them.

Anyway, I was able to get rid of the two shadow members of king Stalwarts troops, and get out of the fight with only a wound on my arm. I'm thankful for that. I just can't go on hidding everything from my friends, because I am putting them in danger. It is selfish of me ot want their friendship and not care that I could be risking their lives. Anyway... the two shadow's attacked , I think they were going to try to hurt one of my friends, having gathered information, or maybe they were trying to get inside their minds... this is getting dangerous now.

Aside from the mortal peral that is always so close at hand, I have never been so confused in my life. I walked into the common room to talk to Jenna about our project and I met a girl named Rachel. I tryed to talk to her about the essay she was doing, but I think I said something wrong. I walked away after apologising and then sat down, I started thinking about dad... and I think I was crying... anyway she got upset and I really don't know why. And then Jenna spoke... and she said that I wasn't taken and that we werent... something... and then she left right away... I'm so confused, I will never understand girls. As long as I live, battle plans and sword play, even complicated spells, but not girls. Anyway I have to go now...

Nathanial James Dorgotten Half Vampire Prince of the Dorgotten Kingdom.

Entry 3

Dear Diary,

Today has been just as wonderful as it started out. I went to my other class and picked up the bird jenna and I are going to looking over then I went back to see my grades. I got a 10 out of 10 in transfiguration and an extra five points in defence against the dark arts for my homeworks. Then I took a walk down to the lake to relax a bit, i ended up practicing sword play. Some slytherin were there and they were bad mouthing gryffindors, I'm sure their ok people once you get to know them. Chaances are I over heard a part of what they were saying, don't judge a book by its cover. And if I did I would never read my books.

Well, anyways, i shadow shifted down to the ground after a while and continued my work with the sword. And then i rolled over and something caught my eye, a girl was sitting their drawing. Somewhat emberressed I said hi and we started to talk. She was very nice, and she said she would be my friend. I'm so happy, I now have two friends, two real frinds, who even after knowing what I am except me. If it wasn't for the war this would be the happiest I have ever felt.

(Although now my fears have gotten wors,e what if I am leading Kina or Jenna into harm. What if I am putting them indanger, and what if one of them is working for the stalwarts... I know I shouldn't put all this is writing, but I can't contain my fears. I don't believe Kina or Jenna would do such a thing, but still I am fearful for their safety.

Nathanial James Dorgotten, Half vampire prince or the Dorgotten Kingdom

Entry 2

Dear Diary,

Today has been very long, and I still have one class left. This morning when I woke up I decided not to go to breakfast, having had plenty to drink last night. I walked down to teh defence against the dark arts room, and the class went very well. I sat in the back of the class and listened while taking notes, the homework was actuallt very fun, although I found it hard deciding what to say and what not to say, I'm not used to writing anything shorter then a novel. After that I went to the potions class, which I think went well all things concidered, it was very relazing and I shadow shifter durring the explosion, I hope no one saw... they would probubly think it was aperation... that would be hard to explain.

After that I went to transfiguration, much of our class was alecture that I found quite interesting, and we were assinged a 100 word essay. I don't think the class liked it much, but I thought it was easy, I hope I did alright with it. I havn't gone to care of magical creatures yet, I can't until jenna gets back because she's probubly going to be my partner, maybe I'll ask the teacher about that and take care of it until she gets back from vacation. I'm going for a ride on my broom and to practice my stances.

Nathanial James Dorgotten, Half vampire prince of the Dorgotten Kingdom

Entry 1

Dear Diary,

Today has already been so amazing. I am happy I finally have time to write and tell you everything. Today started out normal enough, it was my first day here at school and I really wasn't sure I was going to make any friends. I walked to the librery and got out about 20 long books, shouldn't take much toi finish them though and then I went to the great hall. I was just on my way out when I bumped into a beautiful girl. I felt so stupid and could feel the heat rising in my cheeks, I couldn't believe I had been so clumsy as to bump into her. Emediatly I bent down to pick up her books and make sure she was ok, unfortunatly for me I've been depressed lately as you probubly could have guessed. So I've been over dosing on blood, I was able to be pretty normal until we sat down together, and I took her hand. I can't believe how stupid I was, she was obviously not comfertable with that guesture and she gave me a well deserved telling off for it. Even when she was mad she was pretty, and now I can't believe the way I acted. She offered me friendship though, and I am truly pleased to have made a friend here.

We talked for a while about her family, and I think she is the luckiest person in the world. She lives on a ranch and has horses, I mean I have horses... but she actually gets to keep them and everything, not just train with them. And she has family, I'm truly envious, she has sibblings and her house is always noisy, I wish the castle was abit more like that. Anyway we ended up going out to the feild so she could draw and I got out my sword to train, she was really impressed and that emberessed me abit. She's really amazing like that, and she's a writer and an artist. She wants me to teach her how to sword play, I hope I can, and I hope she trusts me enough to... her father doesn't seem open to the idea and I would find it terrible to displease her relations.

On another not so light note I recieved a letter from a girl at our school, in hufflepuff. I saw her earlyer at breakfast, she seems really nice. And she wanted me to meet her tonight but I had to say no becuase I had prior arrangments with Jenna. I'm amazed I have managed to make a friend and hope to make another, it's really wonderful to be around people so much. I feel much better then I have in quite a while although I havn't trained much, maybe I'll go into the forest later on and train there. It seems ideal, I should definatly get in some study tonight, becuase classes will defenatly be comming up. I can't wait, oh yes and I forgot to mention, I made it into Gryffindor. I think the sorting hat said that it was where people that are brave go, I guess thats a good thing, Jenna is in Gryffindor too.

Hmm, there really isn't much else to say, I've been thinking alot about mother latly, and I miss her and Father so much. I hope she is alright, and since it is getting late I assume she will just be getting up out of bed, I'm still praying for father, I hope the war with the stalwarts has not taken him. It's terrible not knowing what is happening in Dorgotten, I may return for the summer holidays and not have any of my family left, I don't think I can take the thrown, if there even is one to take after the war. So much has happened latly that I am always fearful, I am also aware that even here I am not safe, I'm always on my guard now, what if the Stalwarts sent spys here? To Hogwarts? What if some of the students are working for them? As hard as all this is I have to keep my guard and even as I write I must limit what I do write for fear of someone stealing this book. Maybe it is for the best that I do not know what is happening in Dorgotten, if someone here wanted to take the information from me using magic or any other way then that could put the country at risk.

For right now I need to stay alert and keep up my training, it's terrible knowing that any moment I could be teken, or someone, maybe my friend could be taken. I am now fearful that the Stalwarts might find out where I am, and that I have a friend, Jenna. What am I going to do if they try to use her against us? Parhaps I am not as strong as I thought I was, it seems battle would be more simple then this, but as the crowned prince I have to follow orders. I can not hope to much, and maybe my friendship is to much a danger, I can not believe I am only thinking of Jenna and the others safty now. I should have thought of this before, if it is the choice between having friends and keeping someone out of danger then I should keep her out of harms way, or at the very least tell her of the danger.

Once again I wish that my parents could contact me, what if something has happened and they can not contact me? What if father has passed away? And I'm sitting here enjoying myself... These thoughts continue to plague me, and I doubt I will have a restful night, the least I can say is that the day went well... for the most part. Now it truly is getting late, what a shame too. I did fancy some study tonight, I havn't been able to get anything done resently. I believe I will try to get in a good hour before I turn in, if I tire myself out then parhaps these thoughts will leave me, till I am able to next write.

Nathanial James Dorgotten, Half Vampire Prince or the Dorgotten Kingdom.